I am so very tired. Most of it is because it's been weeks since I had normal sleep patterns. Part of it is probably stress of the unknown, however I've always relied on exercise to keep my stress level down. If I get regular vigorous exercise I typically have great sleep patterns. I have been walking (thanks to Mel and many others) and on the stationary bike but that is not the same as running or the elliptical machine. I am not really breaking a sweat when walking or on the bike.
I am sure hot flashes are waking me up occasionally but they are not that bad at this point. You know, I am cold all the time in the winter and it is kind of nice to be warm instead. :)
I also like to sleep on my side (mostly the right) and my stomach. I am guessing that even though I put pillows on both sides at night so I stay on my back, I'm rolling over at night and waking up. I am definitely not ready to lay on my right side and it would be torture to lay on my stomach.
Tuesday I was so tired I was on the verge of tears all day long. I do not remember ever being that exhausted. The good news is I slept 6 hours straight that night. The next day the pain was negligible, I could think, I almost felt like skipping down the halls -- but you know skipping would mean I would have to bounce so I didn't skip but I really wanted to. I felt sparkly and smiley.
But now it is Thursday and I didn't sleep much last night. I had to get up early and be at work by 6am. We had many meetings today and I left at 5pm. Then I went to my much needed hair appt (that I canceled a couple of times due to tests and surgery -- I was looking a little mangy). I got home around 8pm. Oh the day was too long. Hopefully I will sleep tonight.
The doctors did offer drugs but I asked them to give me a couple of weeks (until my March 15th appt) and let me see if I cannot start at least run walking or something. I did promise I would call if it got unbearable.
BTW - I am working at home on Friday which will help a little.
Just sent you a long chat. Too lengthy to post here. Sleep deprivation is a terrible thing. I speak from personal experience. I have always had trouble sleeping well. Any little interruption and my night is over with. G. woke up at 2:30 AM with a Charleyhorse in his leg. By the time I leapt from bed and careened my way into the kitchan and back with an ice pack, I was very awake and the rest of the night was very long. I would have called you, had I known you were up!
ReplyDeleteI know I'm from the South and I say "kitchan" but it was a typo for kitchen. Oops.
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